... email sent Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Hello...
So the oncotype dx results are officially in, and unfortunately my 'risk for recurrence' is decidedly in the high range. My treatment will therefore include six rounds of chemo (to begin next week), and then radiation in the fall. Won’t make for a great “What I did over summer vacation” essay, but will hopefully make for a great 80th birthday party, right?
I got the news Friday afternoon and have shed many a tear in the last few days while my emotions have run the gamut. Chemo is proving to be a veritable mountain as I struggle to accept it and mentally prepare; much more so than surgery was. I’m not sure if this is because I am attempting to prepare for 18 weeks of poisoning my body, the ensuing side effects, and going bald as opposed to a single morning of surgery through which I was able to ‘sleep’ and then a mostly physical recovery… or perhaps I just used up most of my “be brave, stay positive, march forward!” energy reserves getting through step one, and need to cultivate more for steps two and three. (I’m working on it! It would be much easier if it would stop raining so the sun could come out again… )
Regardless, chemo will be neither easy nor fun... but it will seek and destroy, eradicating my body of rogue cancer cells that (mistakenly) think they escaped their doom by fleeing the right breast before surgery… I’ll get through it and it will be but a distant bad memory… and I guess I’ll become a hat person for a while. fyi - no one is allowed to complain to me about having a "bad hair day" again!
That’s the news for now… peace and love to all!
xo
Jamie
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